Sunday, June 27, 2010

this is a short film i saw a while ago. i don't care that it's mabye 15 minuits long, just watch it, please, for some reason, this movie made me smile. like alot.

it just almost restores faith in humanity. people are worth helping i guess.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

one thing people look for in any relationship, is someone they can open up to, you know, tell them where it hurts. we all want friendships where we can tell our friends our problems, and our insecurities, and seek advice, or comfort. we all want a partner who listens to us.

the thing is, are we just showing them our acchilles heel?

if an argument comes, and we all fall apart, they know where to throw the spanner in the works. we have written a script of the things to say that will truly hurt us, and then allow them to use it at their disgression.

now as i'm typing this, i'm doubting what i'm typing. we don't like to think that people want to hurt us. but we all know it happens, in a fight, or a down moment, we lash out.

is it worth it? are those moments of feeling like someone cares, worth the pain we might be casuing for ourselves. sometimes, i just don't quite know.
my problem with this world, is how we shy so much away from the truth. when the manic street preachers released this album, 'journal for plauge lovers' the cover, a painting of a young girl who'd been beaten, was covered when it was sold in shops. it was offensive.

and yet, we all know that kind of thing happens. we cant ignore it. and yet we so desperatly try.

i have a friend, who every time an advert for some charity comes on, turns the channel over untill it's finished. we dont want to acknowledge the problems in the world, if we do, they suddenly become real, these starving children are real, their lives are real, they live in a real world, they live in the same world as me.

we try never to stop and think, because we know, as soon as we do, we will feel so
small, and useless in this world. and we all know, that scares the hell out of us.

so, we hide the album covers, we change the channels, and it's all fine again.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

today; my boyfriend kissed me.
i was wearing my fez.
(i like to wear it casually)
(my friend got it me from her turkish holiday)
(its red)
then he said it was the first time he had ever kissed someone in a fez.
at the exact same time, i said that i bet it was the first time he had ever kissed someone in a fez.
i'm glad we were on the same fez filled wavelength.